I really try to be a good person. I am not a saint...not by a long shot. But I treat everyone I come in contact with respect. I think everyone deserves to be respected as a human,regardless of who they are or what they do,or what they've done in the past. I try to see the best and bring out the best in everyone in my life.
I'm always intrigued by what people will do to make themselves feel good about who they see in the mirror. I'm all for self-confidence...I can even tolerate arrogance to a degree...but I hate the people who only feel good if someone else feels bad.
They use subtle put-downs, and snarky remarks in an effort to remind everyone (themselves), that they could never do what 'she' did, they could never live how 'he' does. Not in a million years! They're better than that. They have morals...standards...self respect! They wouldn't dream of lowering themselves like that.
But if they did? That's the past. People can change. It's not the same thing at all. Those were circumstances beyond their control. Everyone deserves a second chance.
I used to think that I didn't feel hurt by people like that because they are of no consequence to my daily life. But I've learned that I'm more sensitive than I like to admit. It doesn't hurt me enough to harm me in any way, but it is enough to notice. Sometimes it's funny, sometimes it's sad, sometimes it's something else.
I think they must be miserable inside to be like that. Petty, judgmental, hateful. I never want to live my life in that kind of negative state. It can't be healthy.
Listening to: mary j
Reading: the heroin diaries by nikki sixx
Watching: the temperature drop
Playing: the game of life, again
Eating: not enough
Drinking: iced green tea with honey