I really try to be a good person. I am not a saint...not by a long shot. But I treat everyone I come in contact with respect. I think everyone deserves to be respected as a human,regardless of who they are or what they do,or what they've done in the past. I try to see the best and bring out the best in everyone in my life.
I'm always intrigued by what people will do to make themselves feel good about who they see in the mirror. I'm all for self-confidence...I can even tolerate arrogance to a degree...but I hate the people who only feel good if someone else feels bad.
They use subtle put-downs, and snarky remarks in an effort to remind everyone (themselves), that they could never do what 'she' did, they could never live how 'he' does. Not in a million years! They're better than that. They have morals...standards...self respect! They wouldn't dream of lowering themselves like that.
But if they did? That's the past. People can change. It's not the same thing at all. Those were circumstances beyond their control. Everyone deserves a second chance.
I used to think that I didn't feel hurt by people like that because they are of no consequence to my daily life. But I've learned that I'm more sensitive than I like to admit. It doesn't hurt me enough to harm me in any way, but it is enough to notice. Sometimes it's funny, sometimes it's sad, sometimes it's something else.
I think they must be miserable inside to be like that. Petty, judgmental, hateful. I never want to live my life in that kind of negative state. It can't be healthy.
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Mood:
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Listening to: mary j
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Reading: the heroin diaries by nikki sixx
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Watching: the temperature drop
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Playing: the game of life, again
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Eating: not enough
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Drinking: iced green tea with honey
I think, alot of people who read this (at some point in my past, myself probably included) who completely agree with what you say, and are behaving the way you discribed at the same time without noticing it, without noticing their own insecurities.. For respect & confidence walk hand-in-hand. They can't go without the other .
What is in shorter supply and infinitely more precious, are people who take chances, who try things, who bring us new ways of seeing ourselves, who share themselves and their work un-self consciously. A lot of talent at DA reflects this generosity and courage. Dimensioned, truthful, beautiful (as in the case of "Lux No. 9"; still one of my favorites), a much better investment of time.
Keep your head up and know that your fans support you and got your back!
the good thing though is that you're already ahead of the curb, because when you can identify this childish envious behavior, you can actually sit there and feel sad over the fact that such pathetic people exist in this world.
I'm sorry they affect you so. I can understand why this would affect you, it's not the individual insulting scenario, it's the accumulation of them as time passes, and after a while you start to even doubt yourself and ask yourself if all this is in any way your fault, if there's something about you that inspires people to be like this. But it's not you, you don't hurt anyone, you don't disrespect anyone, you don't wish ill will to no one... it's just the world we live in.
But you're better than that and you know it, it's just sometimes we forget due to the overwhelming negativity. But that's just why you post it here, so that we can remind you how awesome you are!!
Scott